My Meditation at Mount Tamalpais

Reflections on Needing to Change

At the top of Mount Tamalpais, in Marin County, California on Saturday, August 17, 2019

I’ve been participating with a meditation meetup group since about June of this year. I first learned about the group through a coworker in our IT department. It has been pretty amazing so far. Yesterday we went to the top of Mount Tamalpais to meditate. The teacher, Chitananda, says that it’s one of the local “power spots” in the bay area where we can tap into the power of the mountain through meditation.

I think I had a pretty powerful experience. I wrote in my journal, “When I have no where else to travel to, I can only go inside myself and spend time with the demons that live inside me.”

“When I have no where else to travel to, I can only go inside myself and spend time with the demons that live inside me.”

What demons within am I talking about? I think we all experience feelings of self hatred, feeling inadequate and feelings of sadness. I asked myself, why does my mind go there, to these negative feelings, when I am in a beautiful space in nature?

I think I came away with the realization that I really need to change. One of the things that Chitananada is always saying is that our outer world is a reflection of our inner world.

Our outer world is a reflection of our inner world.

This meditation class has really been a great guide for guiding my inner work that I need to do in order to change. I think looking into the fog and appreciating how beautiful and mysterious it is made me realize that it’s okay to not know what lies beyond the fog - not knowing what lies ahead - and being okay with the uncertainty. The important thing is to always be fully present.

“Nature does not hurry, yet everything is accomplished.” — Lao Tzu